ambulance
atmosphere
atonement
article
afterlife
animal
affection
alcohol

attachment? in a time like this?

i can only think of being held, by you, who has never held me before

i can only think of being held, by you, who will then have to let me go

i can only think of being held, by you, and then i begin to think of more consequential matters


bandana
blasphemy
ballistics
bicycle
botany
baptism
battery
balcony

beginning of a new world

i can see land from where i am sleeping

we can grow there, if we do not sink

the water is up to my knees and i believe in what’s to come


capital
customer
cognition
computer
countenance
companion
colony
creation

call everyone you’ve ever loved and tell them the story

there was once something beautiful here and it’s just nice to be able to speak to someone who saw it too

distortion
dilation
dynasty
december
dopamine
difference
density
devotion

distance is the only thing keeping me alive

if i let you in where will i stand

please tell me, where do we stand?

i did not want to stand here alone


energy
expression
element
enterprise
envelope
equation
endearment
emptiness

estimate the future and divide it by two

add three

multiply by seven

keep the answer to yourself, it’s not something i’d like to hear


family
funeral
foundation
furniture
frequency
follower
fairytale
fundraiser

feeling rather than touching

to be sensed, a sensation

when i walk down the street people do not notice me and they walk directly into my physical form as if it was just a memory i was reliving in a sunlit room far away from here, a ghost from my own past


gallery
gravity
genesis
gasoline
genetics
graffiti
guardian
gathering

gripping onto the railing, i walk down, remembering that everything that can be lost will be lost

when they said they would reach out later, i believed them, forgetting that i had walked down the steps

my grandmother, i have to call my grandmother


hydrogen
history
happiness
hospital
habitat
highlighter
harmony
halloween

how many people would it take to change enough lightbulbs for us to see something far greater than ourselves

our shadows stand behind us, doomed to follow in our footsteps


internet
insurance
illusion
interest
inception
innocence
instrument
infection

imagine imagining a better world

stop drawing lines

for everyone’s sake, please stop drawing the fucking lines


javelin
jugular
jealousy
jewelry
jupiter
juvenile
journalist
jackhammer

justice is a hard thing to come by, they stopped selling it in the stores

i once heard of a man who sold typewriters out of his garage in san francisco


kilogram
kinetics
kingfisher
kidnapper
kodiak
kentucky
koala
kindliness

keeping my feet on the floor and my back straight and my arms out and my head tilted and my knees bent and my heart beating and beating and beating and beating


library
lovelessness
lottery
levitate
ligament
location
litterbug
letterpress

living after

that’s all we can attempt to do

memory
media
melody
mercury
mitosis
messenger
mosquito
monument

mistakes, you kept making them

you can try forever and that’s all it will ever amount to

i saw you desire perfection and i wondered if you had ever felt calm


nobody
narrator
novocaine
notary
nonfiction
novelty
nursery
nonevent

nothing is unachievable

i have searched everywhere for it

seeking to transform into a concept that defies the laws of being

but i wake up in the morning and i go to sleep at inight

i will die as an object or perhaps even as a subject


oxygen
opposites
opening
obsession
oblation
overload
objective
overture

on the last day

on the first day

on any of the days in between

i had no idea it was that day until it was over


parallel
proportion
packaging
paradox
procession
policy
producer
prediction

partially due to my inability to be known, i’ve become partial to someone who does not see me

yet here i am pained when all of this this is proven true


quality
quarantine
quarterback
quietness
quantity
questionnaire 
quantify
quotation

quit demanding walls to be built by bricks that are crumbling in our hands

i want to see the other side of this facade

who is operating the heavy machinery under consumption of fear


rosary
replica
receiver
rhetoric
remainder
refraction
resistance
retriever

rising

the sun does it every single day without complaint

no one pushes it back down, it does so on its own volition 


suggestion
surgery
spectator
signature
statistics
sentiment
salvation
selection

smiling in the face of a well so deep that only those who never plan on returning gaze inside

there is a sense of joy in the acceptance of all that destroys it

we can laugh about it later


traveler
tinnitus
tradition
telescope
tolerance
transition
temperance
tartarus

tell me i am

tell me you are

tell me i am

tell me you are

tell me i am

tell me you are

you’re a liar, aren’t you


uniform
uselessness
urgency
utensil
ultraism
utterance
usurper
utopist

under no circumstances can we continue as we had before

that is the only certainty i have come to

there has never been anything to prove me wrong

sometimes i wish i was, there are many moments i long to return to, people and decisions


virulence
vexation
vanity
vibration
vocation
vertebrate
variant
vacuity

voluntarily knowing i had no choice in the matter, we are all here to do our jobs

i show up, i clock in, i show up, i clock in, i show up, i clock in

i have never clocked out and i am scared of the inevitable


wilderness
weariness
wretchedness
woodcutter
windowsill
withdrawal
wallpaper
watchmaker

what is one person’s pain but only a small remnant of the world’s most common experience

i watched my father cry

i cried until my nose bled


xanthosis
xylograph
xenarthra
xenotime
xenograft
xenolith
xylophone
xenophon

xoxo

yours truly

even when i should be mine and mine alone


yesterday
youthfulness
yieldingness
yearnfulness
yokeldom
yardmaster
yosemite
yenisei

yeah i get the words

i see them i read them i take them in they become me and i become an amalgamation of experiences i will never know


zeppelin
zoology
ziggurat
zymosis
zodiac
zootheism
zetetics
zealousy

zephyr, blowing in

i see the branches of the tree swaying

i think to myself, it would be nice to be a singularity of a whole

and then i think about the people who complete me and i feel content

and then i think about losing them and i feel everything else

the branches remain unchanged, or at least not in ways that i will ever be able to understand

anarchy
bewilderment
contagious
deliverance
epitome
fatality
grandeur
habitual
innovation
january
ketamine
lingering
monumental
negligible
obscenity
pavement
quota
romantic
sanitation
tangible
ushered
vulnerable
withering
xerox
zenith